2005-06-15
Sometimes, when u hope so much for something - u give all ur heart n soul to it, u wont get it. Not even close to it.
It feels even worse when u have done everything and there is nothing else you can do coz it all on the other force.
It;s just super disheartening….when comething like this happens…
All the air of excitement suddenly just seem to blown away by the strong wind bringing gloomy clouds. I wish i didnt hope so hard.. i wish i didnt felt so strongly about it…
But its not me…its “IT” that excites me, i wouldnt be as excited without it. I have never felt as excited before…like i said..it like 17 again…makes me feel 17, jump like a 17, behave like a 17 year old girl. Its not fair, when all i feel after the excitement is dissapoinment.
But, oh well, if it doesnt kill - it makes u stronger…..
Now - i hope that i will be back to my normal self soon
3 years ago